Stefan’s Diaries: Bloodlust Epilogue

Once I stopped drinking human parentage, I became even better at coning a heartbeat, knowing in an instant, from the speed of a pulse, whether a human was sad or besotted or in savour. Not that I was around globe actually much. After I left New Orleans, I truly was a creature of the night, sleeping during the day and venturing into the outside world only when humans were safe in their beds, fast asleep. entirely occasionally Id hear a quickening heartbeat and know that someone was climbing from a windowpane or sneaking out a door to meet a lover, stealing a few moments of intimacy.That was the hardest sound to hear. When incessantly I did hear it, I was reminded of Callie, of her fluttering heart and quick smile. Of how alive she was, and how she was not afraid to be in love with me despite my true nature. Now, when I think of our aim to escape, I cant help but laugh bitterly at myself for ever thinking it could have been a possibility. It had been the same foolish mistake Id make when Id fallen in love with Katherine, believing that humans and vampires could love all(prenominal) other, that our differences were just a minor detail that could be easily solved. But I wouldnt fall into that trap a third time. Whenever vampires and humans dared to love each other, death and destruction were sure to follow. And I had enough blood on my hands to last an eternity.I would never know the consequence of the harm Damon was causing in the world. Sometimes Id see a report article or hear snatches of conversation about a underground death, and my mind would instantly jump to my brother. Id listen for him, in addition, ceaselessly waiting to hear him call Brother in his exaggerated drawl.But mostly I listened to myself. The longer I subsisted on animal blood, killing the odd squirrel or fox in a fo stay on, the more my Power ebbed, until it was simply a faded thrum in the background of my being. Without Power, I lost the galvanic sense of feeling alive, but t he guilt I would carry for the rest of my existence had dulled around the edges. It was a trade-off, one of many Id acquire to make, and one of many more Id have to make in the eternity that stretched in front of me.So I made the vow to al itinerarys keep moving, to never stay in one place too long or grow too close to anyone. That is the only way Ill do no harm. Because God help us all if I ever fall in love with another human